Monday, December 10, 2012

Day 7.5

Day 7.5
Well, I'm not gonna sugar coat it....yesterday SUCKED! 

The bad new;
My ultasound only showed 3 folicles.  I was told by my doctors "fellow" that at this point they like to see at least 4 and that usually if all 4 haven't been produced by now, they won't be.  She also said that the success rates are so low with only 3 that it's not even worth doing the retrieval.  Which means that they would cancel my cycle and we would have to start over, new cycle with a new regimen.  Which means new drugs.....which means the THOUSANDS of dollars we've spent on drugs is flushed down the proverbial toilet and we need to buy THOUSANDS more worth of different drugs.  Which, is not really feasible considering that we got free drug to even be able to do this in the first place, and we can't apply for free drug again cuz it's a one time deal.  They sent me home to await a phone call.  They didn't even bother to set up my next appointment.  It was very depressing.

The good news;
SCREW THAT!  I'm making follicles RIGHT FREAKIN' NOW!  I'm gonna be a follicle makin' rock star!!  They can kiss my ass!  We did NOT go through everything we went through just to start over and quit on this cycle.  This cycle WILL work.  My body just does things on it's own time...always has.  (Like when I went into labor with my daughter 12 hours before my scheduled C-section.)   I got the call from a nurse yesterday afternoon that the doctor said for me to continue taking my meds and add Ganirelix (sp?) in the mornings and come in Tuesday morning for another ultrasound and bloodwork.  Fine.  I'm gonna make so many damn follicles they won't know WHAT to do with them all!  Bitches.

Saturday, December 8, 2012

Day 6

Day 6-
I'm exhausted.  I had my all day training home at about 4pm and started making dinner.  Just did my injections, which STUNG today, now I'm blogging before finishing dinner.  I fully intend to go rest after we eat. *sigh*  I'm a little cranky tonight.

Oh, and Emily (my 6 year old) is sick, which basically ensures that I will be sick juuuuuust in time for the retrieval.  lol.  Never fails.  Really hoping a cold will not postpone or complicate matters!!!!!!!!!

Heading to UCONN at about 7:30 tomorrow morning with my dee da.

Friday, December 7, 2012

Day 5

Day 5-
Well, day 5 is done!  WOO!  Almost halfway there...
I'm relatively ok.  Very uncomfortable and still Frankenstein like, but surviving.  I've felt the first emotional outbreaks...almost started crying while I was making copies at work today.  Apparently, making copies is quite moving. Ha!  I have to pee constantly and I'm not really sure if I feel hungry or full 90% of the time.  And my friggin' back is killing me.  Ah well, still no big deal.  I can totally do this!  I forgot to mention that when I go for my ultrasound Sunday I have to bring my Ganirelix with I assume that I'll be starting that medication as well.  I can totally do this.......

Aaaaanyway, that said, I am SUPER blessed!  My husband is wonderful, and supportive and helpful!  He ran around all over Litchfield and Torrington tonight taking the kids where they needed to go.  My Mom is babysitting overnight so that I can go to my stupid training tomorrow, and my Mother in law is coming to sit at my house in the morning so that someone is here to sign for my shipment of Gonal F!  I have an absolutely amazing support system!  Don't know what I'd do without them!  Oh boy,  and I'm teary again!
Sheesh!  :-)

Day 4.5

Sorry to keep my HUGE audience waiting... LOL!
Day 4- (kinda) My injections last night kinda sucked. I always feel crappy about a half hour after doing them.  Today is pretty sucktacular.  I'm VERY bloated, can't lean forward without feeling nauseous.  Sneezing makes me fairly certain my ovaries are gonna explode.  Driving is fun, with bumps in the road and whatnot. :-/  Kinda feel like I'm walking like the Abominable Snowman from Rudolph the red nosed Reindeer... or for those of you who DON'T have a 6 year old, perhaps Frankenstein is a better reference?  Either way, you get my drift.  Sitting is VERY uncomfortable, so, ya know it's awesome that my job requires me to sit for 8 hours...and that I'll be sitting for about 10 hours tomorrow for my stupid training class! GAH!
But, I still haven't killed anyone!  YAY ME!  My emotions are in that's a BIG plus.  I ordered more Gonal F today, just enough to get me to Tuesday for now. ($1,112.00 later...)  And I have my ultrasound and more bloodwork Sunday.  Yay! 

I can totally do this.........Right? 

Thursday, December 6, 2012

well, I went to UCONN this morning and had my blood drawn so they can check my estrogen levels, the place was PACKED!  FYI- sitting in a waiting room full of hormonally unstable women is scary! lol  I should be getting a call this afternoon to let me know when I have to go in for my ultrasound....I'm a little nervous that they're gonna tell me they need to increase my dose.  Hopefully not.  Really I'm hoping they say to decrease it so we don't have to shell out another $2500.00 to buy more drugs.  We'll see.  fingers crossed.

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Day 3

Day 3-
Unremarkable.  Shots sting a bit going in, but no big deal...

Really, almost not even worth blogging about.  I haven't killed anyone...yet.  I don't even FEEL like killing anyone...yet.  Although I did get a bit irritated with my daughter this morning when I spent 5 minutes helping her get her tights on just to finish and have her say, "Just so you know, I don't have any underwear on..."  Precious. Fairly certain my reaction was unrelated to the meds. lol! 

I still have the headache coming and going.  My back hurts.  Other than that, I'm good.  Counting my blessings!!!  :-)

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Day 2

Day 2-
Well, I woke up feeling like a million bucks!  For once, that's not sarcasm!  I felt great, like my old self, maybe even better than that. The nurse had told me that my estrogen levels would come down once I took the patches off, before it goes back up from the injections.  So, I'm guessing that is the "high" I was feeling.  Not bloated and space brained, like the fog had lifted.  I still had the headache coming and going, and minimal hot flashes, but nothing major.
I did my injections tonight and it actually was a little easier, didn't burn quite as much.  Hopefully that's me getting used to it?  (Wishful thinking.)  Anyway, I kinda just feel crappy now.  Not horrible, not pain or emotional or even cranky...just, crappy.  Blah.  But hey, everyone is still alive, so I'm counting today as a WIN!  :-)